{"product_id":"im-not-as-well-as-i-thought-i-was","title":"Im Not As Well As I Thought I Was","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003e''One of the most powerful books of the year''\u003c\/b\u003e \u003ci\u003eDaily Mail\u003c\/i\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003e''Nobody can make the serious funny and the funny serious quite like Ruby.'' \u003c\/b\u003e- Alastair Campbell\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eDear Reader,\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eChecking into a mental clinic wasn''t exactly on my radar in 2022. Writing about it wasn''t either. But here we are.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI spent a lifetime trying to create a ''front'' to give everyone the illusion that all is well. It wasn''t, and it isn''t. Now I look back and I think, ''what the f*ck was that all about?''\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI began the book trying to find meaning by going on various, life-changing journeys, I ended up in a mental clinic; obviously things didn''t work out the way I expected. This is the story of what happened after the mental car crash . . . From then on, the journey had to turn inward. It turns out I wasn''t looking for meaning, I was looking for home.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI''m not a fiction writer. I can''t fake it. I could say I rode into the sunset, but life isn''t like that unless you''re a cowboy. Truth is I''m not as well as I thought I was.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThese days, trying to stay sane in a completely chaotic world makes life incredibly difficult. For those readers who are deep in the darkness of mental illness, I hope my book makes you feel less alone.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eTake care, love,\u003cbr\u003eRuby x\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e---------------------------------------------------------------------\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003e''If you buy only one book this year, make it this one.''\u003c\/b\u003e - Joanna Lumley\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003e''A true tour de force. We''re all a little messed up in our own ways, but we should all strive to be as fabulously fearless as Ruby.'' \u003c\/b\u003e- Fearne Cotton\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eAs seen on Channel 5 Castaway\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003ci\u003eSunday Times\u003c\/i\u003e bestseller, May 2023\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"MediaPlace","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":57216679379326,"sku":"NW9780241554913","price":11.67,"currency_code":"GBP","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0817\/1379\/1261\/files\/9780241554913.jpg?v=1780416223","url":"https:\/\/mediaplace.com\/products\/im-not-as-well-as-i-thought-i-was","provider":"MediaPlace","version":"1.0","type":"link"}